me again – the intermittent blogger.  had a nice day off today well actually it’s tomorrow.  anywho.  small group was good tonight.  we are on chapter 4 – brokeness.  we had to bring in articles about various incidents or tragedies that have occured.  one person brought in an article on the 1o year anniversary of columbine.  someone else brought in an article on jim jones, the person who led people to drink cyanide laced kool-aid for communion, all in the name of God.  someone else brought in pictures of a child who has some kind of disease and most likely will not make it to their fourth birthday.  we talk a lot about God being good and powerful and all knowing so on and so forth.  i believe that.  however with so many tragic things that go on in the world,  i cant help but wonder why.  i know we have free will.  i know that adam and eve disobeyed in the garden and that this led to the separation of God and man.  that still doesnt stop me from asking why.  why doesnt God stop the bad things and the bad people?  why do babies die?  why do innocent people die?  i was bold enough to ask this question and i felt that a few people got a little tense or put off by my question.  then people began with their pat answers like God is in control and good can come from evil, and we dont see the bigger picture and we have free will.  ok.  that still doesnt answer my question and these explanations dont satisfy me.  so.  why?  to keep my brain from exploding i just tell myself that it’s life.  onto chapter 5.  i have many questions.  i will keep exploring and growing in my faith even if i feel like the answers i get are not what i want to hear.  i continue my walk with God.

im going to enjoy my day off tomorrow.  im going to eat more steak and smashed potatoes and ghetto cheese popcorn from kroger and rice pudding.  im also going to go to the gym in the morning.  im going to drag my roommate with me.

oh yeah – i took , or ripped, my nails offf. what a great feeling.